Wednesday, April 13, 2011

At the Bottom of the Hill on the Roller Coaster I Call "My Life"

The days are so redundant lately. Thank goodness we have our routines, I feel like I'm on auto-pilot. My friend Leslie that I grew up with in Vegas called me and left me a message telling me that it was ok that I don't answer my phone...and that she loved me. I'm so lucky to have good friends.

Mike has the flu, Harper feels terrible, Lola wears squeaky shoes now and runs around singing songs, the other kids are on spring break and I haven't even seen 3 of them. Kenzie's with friends all the time, Jonah's out with his buddies riding bikes and Casey's with his bestie, looking at everything they can see with the new telescope he got for his birthday.

I haven't talked to my sister Eliza in a month. Ashley keeps in touch with me through twitter because she knows I can handle 140 characters at a time and my brother is handling some of my legal issues in Vegas, so he gets to hear from me when I call to get updates.

When it rains...it pours. I'm in love with the last conference we just had. It keeps me going. I can barely walk, this sweet baby boy is just about to come out and I'll tell you what, it gives me an excuse to why I don't get out of bed.  Thank goodness for books. A few of my friends have sent me passages of inspiration, some scripture, some quotes from famous people...and they keep me going. I have a little notebook that has one of the monsters from Where the Wild Things Are on the front and it's full of thoughts and messages that I've written down that will help me to be better when I'm feeling the weight of life right now.

7 kids, I'm so grateful for. Legal stuff that's more annoying than worrisome but just dealing with it makes me anxious. I wish I could expound but you know...I try to keep it here in our home so our words don't get twisted like they sometimes are. Let's just say we're not worried because we are the very people who've been taking care of our kids 100%, ONE HUNDRED PERCENT, of the time. 1 car down, a car with 5 seats is all we've got. Mike works 110 miles roundtrip from our home and it costs us about $350 per month just for gasoline in this economy. Sickening. Do we move?  Do we find me a job that is 9-5 after the baby comes?  Should Mike get a second job?  Mike's mom's heart is failing. She's only got his sister with her down in California and she works so much it's really hard for her to balance work and their mom. She's so fantastic, I hope she gets better soon. 

There, I had to get some of it out. The rest, well that's just stuff we don't need to talk about. Let's just say having teenagers and a big family is hard work. Mike and I are working our tails off to keep our home balanced and safe and free from outside attackers. Being REAL parents takes 24/7 work. I'm lucky to have this man of mine next to me. And I'm so glad this pregnancy is almost over. It's made a mess of my head.  Hopefully this babe will be as cute as I think he is. How can he not be? He's ours...and I think my babies are the cutest kids in the world.  That's what moms do right?

How'd  you like that post?  Let's see if Wednesday brings me something good. Like a Coke slurpee. Cross your fingers...the sun's almost up. Is it too early to drink? (a slurpee, that is. Pshh, I'm not that terrible)

12 comments:

Sarah said...

Hugs to you, my friend! Love you!

ashleyO said...

And I thought my week was bad. You are great sister. Well, I better keep this under 140 characters 'cause, you know... Press Forward Saint!

Stacey Eaton said...

Hats off to you. Your doing great.

Meri Dawn Thompson said...

You're awesome Alli! Hang in there!

Tricia said...

Sending huge {HUGS} to you and your gorgeous family! xoxox

liz @ bon temps beignet said...

Alli girl, I'm sorry you have so much on your plate. I pray that your load is lightened and someone brings you a big ol bucket of coke... slurpee. I'll be thinkin about you and that lil baby! Big hugs!!

"The Aimonites" said...

I think you should stay in bed and rest but take pictures of everything and anything. If they come through your door they have to pose for a pic. Who knows it might keep your mind off things. Rock on sista!

Amber said...

Can't wait to see that cute baby boy! Love and hugs!!!

liz @ bon temps beignet said...

I assume from the silence that you've had that sweet littl ebaby boy! Congratulations : ) Hope everyone is doing well!!

Sandi said...

I am going crazy! I know this little man must be here! UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE!!!

liz @ bon temps beignet said...

Hope you're doing well! It's been a while, just wanted to make sure you were ok :)

"The Aimonites" said...

Hey it has been over a month so get off that roller coaster and come blog for all your fans.. :) we need a lil sumthin sumthin! called inspiration the Ali way